Funny dayz~~

OMG!!! i suddenly wok for another psrt time today!!! as cafe singer. hahahaha.....

haha... today as usual go to wings cafe lol... but the singer not here, replace by another singer, also my friend, name Steve. haha... so long time never meet him already lol. cause i mostly saturday go to wings and he sing other days. funny things happen...

another singer also not here.... and Steve sing alone lo... ask people come up to sing with... one girl sing lo, as present for her friend who birthday. but the most funny things is... after that i go sing lo. and sang until the end of the day... haha...

after first session, another replacement singer is not here yet. Steve called the leader who arrange people to sing, but unable to reach cause he was singing in another cafe today... and S called another people... and the guy said he will tried to arrange another people to come... but waited until second session, no one come yet... and i continue to replace, until the end. haha...

feel so happy. cause starting feel so scare, but later ok di. learn so many things from Steve today. haha.. he is a very experience singer. haha... thanks for giving me a chance for singing on stage for thr whole day... thanks...

Vacation...

Yeah!!! vacation is on the ways yeah!!!!!! going to gemas tomorrow... btw will drop by in Afamosa! Hehe... so happy lo! long time no go vacation. last time go out also go work.. hehe... school holiday can go get un!!! yeah!!!! wait me post up picture ya!! yeah yeah!!!

Mmm... Happiness is my life~

Yeah... exam is going to end lo. so happy oh!! still same, working and studying... what to do? have to support myself staying outside lo. cannot everytime also depend on family mah. haha... but hor... huh.. i think i stay outside use more money than i stay in own house lo. hehe. cause everyday go eat so many things and go sing k. huh... today, or should say yesterday night time go sing k again. Amy go together and i pull Steven go also. huh... is an unplanned programme la. actually tot to go buy present for Alex who birthday tomorrow, or is today. Happy birthday ya old Pa. then can't buy anything in mid valley, decided to buy him a cake and give him a supprise la... then suddenly say want go sing k. Steven said don't want to go, but still pulled by us to go... huh... i think this time he really get angry edi lo.. cause everytime also like that. huh... Di, sorry la. next time we or i should say, i won't do again la. don't angry lo... love u so much. haha... really promise won't do again la...

mmm...dunno la... sometimes oh, really feel worthless staying in this world. why people have to life, study and work, married and give birth, then old, and death? human are born to death, friends are meet to separate, we study to work... huh... what a distorded thinking i am having... must be the stress of exam and work. haha... dunno lah... sometimes i feel heart to heavy to stay happy around... huh... but as what i am, always look at the bright side... life have to live happily, study so we get a better work, meet and appreaciate friends so will not disappointed when separated... haha... as i always tell people... no matter how dark is it, there is always a light around it. find it, and moves thoughward it... give ourself a little bit hope, it is not very hard to do. no matter how unhappy something make us to be, always see from the bright side... there is always a reason for something bad to happen. haha... this is what i belief, that make me feel relax and happy everydayz...

Darkness and Light...

huh... sometimes really fel unhappy with friends attitude. mmm... should how to say it? can say that one of the theory that i study in child development, 'child egoentrism' in piaget's theory actually still exist in adulthood. is just that it appear in different from... or i should say it as 'selffishness'... people always only will look at their own side. very often they will consider other people's situation. support what i said?

example one... people always borrow money from other people. problem is if the money is for urgent use ie education, medication, still can be understand. but borrow money to go vacation, play, i can't think the reason to lend to this type of people. is not outside people, is someone who very close to me. problem is, i am working and studying at the same time, and i have to support my breakfast, lunch, dinner, petrol, room rent and school fees. and you were staying in own house. and want to lend money from me to go out play... is it a little too over for that?

example two... when you were busy studying, and you said something that offended me. that is when you need me, you will look for me. now i am having exam and i am working at the same time. you look for me to help you on something that become important because you postpone it for a long time. and why can't i just tell you that i am busy study and will look for you when i wanted to help you instead of make time to help you solve your problem? maybe i am too weak... i should treat you as what ou treated me last time... but i didn't... still, sometimes i will have the thinking that you always used me for your own purpose... you will not look for me, beside when you need my help... 'egocentrism'... only look at own perspective...

example three... when something wrong happen, everyone will say their own never do anything wrong. everything is other people's fault... is that true? please, think twice before you say the word. look at your own heart, as him, is that other people's fault? people is like that. as what a malay proverb sound 'gajah di depan tak nampak, kuman di seberang nampak'... or direct translation as 'you can't see the elephant in front of you but you see the bacteria on the other side'... from the sentence i think everyone will understand what it means... yes, no matter how big is the mistake that one person make, they will never see it. but no matter how small a problem causes by others, it will be seen as big problem... still, 'egocentrism' happen...

so, agree with me that piaget's theory children egocentrism actually still exist in adult? the answer is 'yes'. like the private speech turning into inner talk, the egocentrism perception also change into inner egocentrism, only think about own self...