back, i be...

huh... have been busy for 2 weeks... because?? out station lol. not for play, is to work. huh...

last week have been urently throw out to go ipoh, parit buntar, taiping, parit buntar again, penang, parit buntar again, back to ipoh again, then back to KL~~ for what go there? for work lol. what else? haha... this new project really do making everyone becoming crazy~ huh... pity me. suddenly throw me out station. make me have to cancel my Genting trip... and my mirium concert!!! arg@!!!! i want to kill people.. waited for so long only get the chance and ticket to see her concert!!! suddenly ask me go out station. huh... luckily no need to pay one. huh.... if not!! i die also dun want to go out station for work. huh...
but is nice too, although is for work, but i have chance to go so many place at 2 to 3 days. haha... and ate few local famous food lol. hehe... zhong yun yok yun fan, ipoh taugeh chicken la, ipoh white offee la, penang char gui teow~~ buy those ipoh geh kuih muih... those sak kei mar~~ 'little chicken biscuit'~~ coconut candy~~ and my favarite sweet peanut sugar biscuit! about whole packet i finish di!!! hehe.... then, can add in places to my phone geh gps map! go guan yin temple to pray la~~~ pass by the sleeping buddhist temple la, no enter cause close di lol...
hahahaha... nice lol.. but hor, driving to those place is not that good lol.. very tired leh~~ huh... lagi nyaris nyaris langgar kereta. huh...... at highway there lagi sikit sudah mau langgar lori, cause tak tahan mengantuk... then terkejut and wake up already!!! haha...

then, this week leh... being throw to kelantan and terengganu.. huh... kasihan nya... early early 5am wake up, 6am go airport, 7am naik kapal, 8am reach, eat KFC AGAIN, 9.30am go outlet, 10.30am load things in, then found out that only 1.30pm can start work... then do what?? chat with the part time guy lol~~ found out he don't have black pant and shoe... huh... bring him go walk around and buy the pant and shoe.. haha... like bringing a little brother go shopping... keep asking my opinion~ haha..... then settle everything... 1.45pm take bus... bus 2.10pm only start.. sit for 3 hour, reach Kuala Terengganu there 5pm something... huh... sit until buntut also sakit~~~ haha... then go KT there... luckily know someone there. hehe... also cause last time work there la... then thanks him a lot lot lot for being my driver and also my tour guide. haha... meet a girl lol, our new KT area supervisor, after the chocolate girl. now we have a milk girl there. haha... there eat a chicken rice which is quite famous for in the town lol... hmm... the chicken rice okok la. but the chilie not good. huh.... hohohoho... then, bring me go terengganu famous crystal mosque la... pantai buruk la... hehe... museum la... but no enter la. haha..... then back KL lol yesterday night. haha.....

huh... thinking to drive to east courst... then i can go one place by one place slowly, no need to rush~ hehe...

back KL.. huh... have to back to normal work lol. huh... visiting 8 outlet in a day. and coming week ah... 12 outlet leh!!! i 8 outlet also cannot finish visit ah... next week 12 outlet... wahseh.... die lol die lol... huh... tak tahu maca mana nak mati nie~~~ huh........ help me laaaa!!!!!!!!

tiredz...

huh... Currently really feel very tired. Work, life, friendship... Seems everything is very hard to me currently. Hmm... I feel like i want to let go everything and have back my easy and nothing to worried geh life. Haha. But i think after tat i would want back my working life, cos boring to be boring. Haha. Why why tell me why? Huh... Maybe this is what people say adult life. Haha. I am in my adulthood la. Should suit myself to be in this life. Huh...

Get to know more and more people currently. Thanks to wings cafe which i went almost every weekend. And also my job as event area supervisor. Really, there where so many different people. Different behavior, different attitute, different emotions. Haha. Everyone is so unique. But most people i know have 1 similarity. That is very 3 8. Haha. Funny, playful, cheerish. Maybe because i m someone like this thats y people around me are almost like this. Hahaha.

I like this song a lot. 你不是真正的快乐. It seems is singing out my inner voice. Huh. True. I m not happy. Not happy with my friend. Not happy with my coleauge. Not happy with my work. Not happy with my behavior. Not happy with my attitude. Not happy with this and that. Huh. Conclusion. I am not a happy fellow. Huh. But why? Why i still smile to everyone? Why i still laugh to people? Why? Why? Huh... Sometimes i really do not understand of myself. Huh. Seems i am going to be schizo, or DID la. Opps. This 2 terms only understand by my coursemate la. Haha. Is psychology term eh. Haha. Huh.

I get to know a fellow currently. Haha. I know u got feeling throughward me. U hug'ed me. And also u kiss'ed my face although i said i don't like that. I know u like me very much. But... Huh.. I can't accept u. Is not that u not good. Is just.. Just that i don't think u suitable to me. U are not the one that i looking for, not the one that i think will together with me, accompany me to the end. I know i m very old minded thinking and sturborn. But... Sorry... I don't think i can accept u...

Today very no good .aka bad mood ah. Huh. This is the first time in my work with the current company, get so many complain. Huh.. It seems to me that the more i put myself to work, the more mistake i'll make. Maybe the work is correct, the more we do the more complain. Nothing i do then there will be no mistake. Haha. I think i should try it la. Haha.

i should wake up...

huh.. After got this nokia n79, everything become easy lo. Haha. No matter to where i go, if there is wifi, i can online. Haha. Can check mail, check friendster, now i even can write blog. Haha. Everything in my hand. Click click click. I just need to click my hand only. Hehe.
Huh.. I had think many many many times. And many many many consideration. I think the old me do too soft already. Always scare this scare that until i forgotten my own self. From now on, i need to think, my ownself first. Is true, there were no one in this world that are not self fish. So, i have to join in the conformity, become one from the world, one of the sellfish people. Maybe not that ultimate sellfish, but at lease to think my own opportunity and my own benefit first no matter what i do. Everytime, i will think a way so everyone will get the benefits. Until i sacrifies my own benefits... Now, to pay back those who had hurt me in the past. I need to be strong, to create a protection wall, and a counter attack cannon, to pay back those who hurted me and want to hurt me, no matter in what way. I have to be evil, evil, evil..... Hurt them before they hurt me. Pay back 10 times they do to me. I swear i will...

Emotion..less...

Huh... working life have been.. so so so stupid. i should aid it as. huh.. why? the word is true,' no friend should work together in a same place'. huh... this is the second time, my friend, should say a very very long best friend, know me more then 10 years, argue with me because of working. huh... she is always thinking she will be right. never see in the different point of view. do you think supervisor is very big?? every company have their own management and hierachy. in this company, supervisor is the LOWEST rank. the powerless. huh... for people outside, they always think we hold some power in the management, sorry to say, we never does, and i should say, will never have.

hmm.. happy things is.. yeah. pimple is less and less currently. haha... now most on my face is the scar... huh... when they will gone leh? haha... i seems to be very greedy lo... first want pimple gone, then now pimple less di want scar gone. haha... huh... i have used many money in this leh.. almost my one month salary ah for it. sure want the best result!!! haha... hopefully it will gone before mid april la. haha......

then... intern... yeaH!!! want end la.. huh... i have already in the internship for 1, 2, 3 the forth month in the company for training, haha.... another one month!! must must must go thru it!! hohoho... i belief i can do it! haha.. i will find my way, i wanna different way~ hehe...

then... at last i bought my dream phone, nokia n-series. hehe... n79. but hor, the camera function is not so good o... night time shot not so good. huh... but morning shot or enough bright shot is very very clear. other function is very good la. but not so biasa... cause last time always use SE phone lo... hehe... but a lot of function. and it do help me in most of the time. haha....

curerently also not in a very good mood. cause... huh... should know la after reading this blog... have to say,'thanks thanks thanks to many people, who listen to my moody problem, who sings songs to make me feel happy, who accompany me thru he phone... thanks thanks thanks so much!!! thank you!!! and to those who make me bad mood. thanks to you too. i have learned to be strong, and see the true of you! you teach me to be an emotion'less human being. facing you people, i will be emotion'less. my good heart, should not give you... thank you.