i should wake up...

huh.. After got this nokia n79, everything become easy lo. Haha. No matter to where i go, if there is wifi, i can online. Haha. Can check mail, check friendster, now i even can write blog. Haha. Everything in my hand. Click click click. I just need to click my hand only. Hehe.
Huh.. I had think many many many times. And many many many consideration. I think the old me do too soft already. Always scare this scare that until i forgotten my own self. From now on, i need to think, my ownself first. Is true, there were no one in this world that are not self fish. So, i have to join in the conformity, become one from the world, one of the sellfish people. Maybe not that ultimate sellfish, but at lease to think my own opportunity and my own benefit first no matter what i do. Everytime, i will think a way so everyone will get the benefits. Until i sacrifies my own benefits... Now, to pay back those who had hurt me in the past. I need to be strong, to create a protection wall, and a counter attack cannon, to pay back those who hurted me and want to hurt me, no matter in what way. I have to be evil, evil, evil..... Hurt them before they hurt me. Pay back 10 times they do to me. I swear i will...