Backed... to my wonder world...

t last is the end of the month.. and as said.. i had officially resign from the company.. and going back to my old wonderful world. haha... happy or sad.. is hard to know. hard to define... hard to speak out... a lot of things had happen... happy and sad... anger and moddy... everything just rush back to me in once... haha...

想试着努力的洒脱，一转身眼泪却在流。。。离开之前忍著眼泪收著最后的防线。

i like this 2 sentence a lot. is from 2 different songs, but from the same singers. haha.. both i know them, and these songs is writen by them, two of them.
when ever we wanna run away from something, we actualy huting our ownself.. that is why 'we try as hard to run away, to release, but still our tears is droping just at the corner'...
when we tried to release something, we will always show that we are strong enough to face it, thats why we always keep our tears, and we seems not disturbed by it... that is why 'before we go away, we hold our tears, and we keep our last blockage.' to show that we did not bother by the incident. haha...

back to myself...
Hehe... i had make a glasses lol.. at last. haha... actually i had some sight problem la.. 'shan guang'.. light brightness problem.. just a very mild problem. but i think it do disturb my studies, as i can't see the word on the projector's screen. huh... thats y i went with one of my close friend to make the glasses... together. and guess what? she used up to 2 hour to choose her glasses. haha.. of course, including giving me opinion la for my glasses as well. haha..

studying psychology really make me seeing things carefully, and from different point of view... but it also making me hard to make a decision... as i will always see from more than 2 point of view... huh... really hard for me to adapt... hard to know what is true and what is false, what is good and what is bad... what is real and what is illusion... in front of me.....

currently one incident happen. some one close to me actually remind me of the true of human personality... what we see with our eye sometimes is not true... there is some hidden secret that can't seen by the eyes... my closed friends think that i get closed too soon... with a friend that i know currently. and i too trusted this friend of my, although we did not know for very long time. and i think most of people close to me knows, i will always treat people that i trust with my heart... and they scared that i will be hurt.... maybe... but... still, i believing him... dunno why. maybe is the feeling... maybe is his personality... maybe i just feel to trust him... haha... anyway... i trusted you. haha...

then... another incident happen la between me and another friend, huh... this is a very funny... and terrible things that shouldn't happen. haha... and i also feel so suprise.. and shock.. after get to know it from a closed friend of mine. she told me that someone confronted her that the particular person fall in love with.. erhem... me. and... huh.. i also what to say la. just that we shouldn't have this type of feeling, and this type of relationship. i know about this earlier... but i don't belief that th particular person brave enough to confront it to my friend... very closed to me. haha... shock... and dunno should laugh or cry. haha......

huh... currently been singing in a cafe in Setapak. haha... new experient.. cause singing with a female partner. haha... thanks a lot for taking care yo, Ling. haha... thanks a lot.