Wonderful...

Had been thinking the reason for many many time, many many days, many many month....
why it become bad to worse??
at last i realised it....

today went to sing k with chien, cyee and kien. had a wonderful night having fun with them as always. haha... no wonder we are a geng from secondary to now! because we are playful and crazy! haha... a geng need to consist many many characteristic. haha.... thats correct...

suddenly realise this when i am singing one of my favarite song which had been long forgotten... 'firework' or 'yan huo'... i found my sound were different singing this song comparing to the other song... suddenly, all the memory come to me...

the first time i sing 'zhuan shu tian shi' on stage...
the whole year which i were giving chance to sing this song on stage...
the time when i singing 'yan huo' in a performance...
the time when i sing 'zhuan shu tian shi' while working on stage...
the comment that a friend of mine told me when i was playing on the stage...
the comment the same friend give me when i was working on the same stage...
the word one of my best friend said in k while she asked me to sing 'yan huo'...
the talks that we have when i chat with all my cafe singer friends...
the words that one of the cafe singer scolded me because some silly things i did...
and at last...
i realise the reason...
why i do not have the intention, the emotion and the feeling...
which i have when i was playing on the stage...
but not there when i was working on the same stage...
is because...
i am singing...
because i need to sing...
but not singing...
because i want to sing...
thats the different...
i am happy...
i am sad...
because i realise the reason...
and know the fault i made....
one day...
i will return...
with the starting me...
who sing...
because he wanted to sing so much on the stage...
i promise....